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this blog is useless....unknown people are too many...don hope to post more blog here....comments are too stupid....

lit me...

The day past….his bday wish also cannot be fulfilled…I have to do like that…I think this is the best way…if u don love someone u better tel him so…if not big matter wil happen..u wil hurt him deeply……love is really hard…need to go through many up and down then only u deserve to get a true love…but…its ok…so u wil appreciate it when u get it…hope everyone in this world get their true love….and live happily….

holiday....

holiday....other ppl's holiday is very fun but it looks different for me...they wil enjoy everyday...go anywhere n do anything...i jus work...everyday i wil think y my life is like that???its jus dull n boring...i don wan to be like this...but wat can i do..nth...think money...think family..then everything wil worthy if i work...ya...worth...

for the first week, its tiring n painful...s, long time din stand for 10 hours...then i go n talk to the in charge person...maybe i wil stop working if its continuous..then mom gave me a kind of medicine..miracle...haha..stop the pain...so i continue my work til the third week...start my 'old friends'...not getting well after few days...so i resigned...then go back home..rest..but til now stil got a little bit cough..haiz...take a long time to fully recover...first time..

then i spend some of my salary on my new spec n saloon...haha...cost me 500...ringgit malaysia...not sing dollar...then use around 300 in presents n food n my new year clothes..in one day...this time is sing dollar...keng...buy it when christmas eve...then went to orchard road to celeb it...have a long walk...n snow spray...anyway....something happen...its really frustrating for me...but stil can manage...

im thinking why i have this kind of prob but not others..is it i haven meet someone like that o its my own prob..the feeling make me wanna go to another place to start a new life with myself entirely changed...is it a good idea????haha...don think so...if i can do that i don think i need to work...jus wat im thinking now i also dunno...

i think every gal needs someone to care bout her...including me i think...but i feel like im not desperate til i need it now...i think this is not the time for me to be with someone...jus dunno why...don think i can accept any guys...sorry, guys...i hope when i accept a guy, the guy is the choice i really wan...n the right one...

now is the time for me to study...not going to think bout any other things...jus hope i can get a good result...new sem....new life...this is wat i say every sem...haha...but look like the same...nth change....sien....kla...really sien liao...bye...

A special dedication to my closest friend in UTM

I would like to dedicate this blog post to my closest friend here. I treat her as my closest friend here because she is the only people can understand me and can listen to my sharing when I feel sad. She is sad and disappointed recently… Because she have too much admirers!

Main reason she have that large amount of admirers is because she is totally beautiful from inside and also outside (I think). She is different from any other girls that I met before. She is more mature than any other girl I can found in UTM. In short, she is great!

The way she treat people is really different. Most of the girls will just reject and avoid her admirers later to let her admirers understand that they are hopeless. But, she chose to treat them as friend although she rejected them. I think this is why her admirers don’t let her go, they misunderstand her message. Admirers think that they still have chance (I think) because she never avoided them as what usually a girl will do for this after rejecting admirer.

She said, “The more people like her, the more I feel (from girls) dislike. The more people care I (rejected admirers), the more I will feel blessed with many unhappy things.” I said to her, “More people like you, more people hate me (because I’m so close with her).” Sometimes I feel pressure to be her friend (because of what her admirers do to me is so childish), but I don’t mind. I just want a friend, who can understand me, can hear my sharing, jogging with me, and having lunch and dinner with me.

Since the first semester, I already bored with the thinking of close relationship between guy and girl must be an attached relationship. I was the closest friend (guy only) to Michelle, and everyone thought that I’m the lucky one when she declared her status. This shows that I’m not understand by others here. I say again, “I oppose that I will have relationship with any course mate. I just want a simple life here. I enjoyed lunch, dinner and also tea time with you all, I like to have badminton with you all during spare time, I want we strive for success together (no one should be leaved behind).”

I don’t understand why people like to make things complicated. She did mention that she want to study here, and not interested to having any relationship with any course mate already! I don’t know why her admirers still cannot respect her decision, if they really love her. I strongly recommend that her admirers should leave her some space, respect her decision (still can be friend ma) and treat her as friend (or else maybe will lose a friendship too).

To her admirers,

I hope that you all can understand her. Think in her shoes! What she feel if a guy that she rejected continue tackling her? Does she feel comfortable of this? (Please think thoroughly and be more mature).

True love is something last long, not puppy love. What you like about her? Her beauty? What if some day she grows older? Does she love you too (most important thing)? Do you understand her? Does she understand you as well? Can love last long if just have the love from your side? She will happy? (Please consider these too).

I have something to ask her admirers…

What you know about love? How can you say you love her if you don’t even understand her? Of course, you have your right to express your feeling to her. But, don’t you feel shame of not even respect what her decision is and you say you love her… If is like this, I think you just want to own her, don’t care about her feeling (can you win her heart like that?). You think she is a good in store? Of course, not!

True love cannot be forced. You wish to live together with the person you love, she also have her right to live together with the person she love (Please respect her right). Another thing, please don’t express your feeling of loving her to me! Express to her. Don’t show it to me through your eyes and actions. Show it to her and respect us!

Much appreciated and most thank you for your cooperation!

For me, I dare not to have relationship with course mate. I want my free life here. I’m afraid that I forced to face (any course mate), if we have quarrel for our relationship. So, my conclusion is no relationship for me here!

FROM,

CHEE KWEI YUNN

late post.....

11/11/2008 8.44pm
Today went to fac to study but end up one slide also din finish…stupid….how to finish it in one night???don think so…unless im not going to sleep…anyway, sure wil try my best to finish it even no need to sleep…but I don think it’s a good solution…as…tired cant help someone to study…so I also dunno how to settle…whole day bz bout the ISD paper n DS paper…not only that but also find SE n CCNA lecturer….jus bcz wanna know the carry marks…but know two carry marks liao….41.5/65 n 46/60…..wat a shame….not me at all….haiz…wat happen…the most unhappy time is 3rd sem….hope wil get better the next sem…hopefully….sddly feel like im the lowest n the most stupid gal in the utm…o maybe jus in SCS….n become the gal which everyone also don like….haha…dunno why wil think like that…what happen???haha…last time de kiong is not ‘kiong’ anymore….kla…wanna bath n start study…if not all of this wil be proven immediately…bye…
Last sentences…………….
The more ppl like me, the more I wil feel dislike……
The more ppl care me, the more I wil feel bless with many unhappy things….....

hurting myself.....

for me the important thing in life is to be happy...anything is not important also...but i have the feeling that im making myself unhappy these days...dunno y....i think im not hurting myself only...but some...hope u can understand n pls be happy...i wil try to be happy everyday too....now jus concentrate the thing i shud concentrate...don think too much...gambateh oh...!!!!! (^-^)

something....

2/11/2008 9.55pm
U wil think y others can get wat u wan for all these years but u cant….however, sometimes u wil think y u r the chosen one…