home sick....

if not mistake i think its started on thursday which is 22nd....woke up then feel terrible...1st fren-sore throat...the most i hate de sick...came out the 2nd hate fren...flu...then on wed's nite i think...my fren is getting worse...get a thermos of 'liang cha' from someone...every time sick i wil get to drink it...so good...haha...thx wo...appreciate it...but i think every time after i drink i din wash it...lazy me....haha....sorry...then when feel tired, plan to sleep but cant sleep...find the same someone to help me...then chat for a short time...after turn for few times finally slept...but woke up for every one hour...so sam fu...the next morning stil the same...but the happy thing is its the day i go back home....today left a fren haven back...which is flu...stil ok than the first day..
that day i shud do my work with my group members...but i din...feel so irresponsible for the first time....sorry guys, although u cant see this...next time i feel like scare to find u all to be a group liao...haha...maybe no need me to scare but u all dy run away from me liao...nvm...its my fault also...
getting close to my final...but i don have confident at all...feel like im the first one who wil break the record of GK if i bcum a member of GKUTM...cant get 3.5 n above...nvm...s long s i dy try my best...everyone also has their own capability...maybe its not mine...then how i do also cant get any better...but even mom also realise my statistic is dropping...haiz....suan le ba...cant do anything...
another story....quite happy...long story....haha....at first, 4 flowers know each other when having MHS...one is not available n always wil not available...haha...so cal ah ma...then after few months, me...but break after few months also....haha...that time michelle n kinki said left them alone liao...then come to 2nd sem...kinki is attached also...so,michelle said all of us also can find one but not her...but now she is the one attached...left me alone!!!huahaha...haiz....feel like this story can make me think back pass n we know each other for a long time...not bad...so...wish them happily ever after....

'selfishness'

wat is fren?fren is for u to let your life more colourful...sometimes wil be black n sometimes wil be orange...maybe sometimes wil be red also...which mean sometimes u wil have bad memory sometimes u will feel happy n sometimes u wil feel mad with them...
can fren be trusted?haha...good question...if u ask this question then u shud think yourself first...do u trust your fren?if wan me to answer it i would like to say no...why?bcz i can feel the betrayal among frens...n masks....
can a fren be a selfish person?at last this is the point i wan to talk bout...i think im selfish...why?i can feel the feeling of jealousy and uneasy when im looking at my frens...sometimes if u can see that someone treat u not like others which is better, then u wil feel very happy dy...n think u r the special one...i wan to be the special one...thats y i can say im selfish...

now, realise all the posts also sad n bad thing...no happy thing at all...haha...i also dunno...maybe when u feel sad u wil write it out to let it gone...happy shud keep...so it won go anywhere...n every bad experience wil let u become stronger n tougher...so u won get hurt easily...

09/10/2008 07.40pm
For the first time I really feel lonely…after back from rushing the SE proposal, I went back and watch two episodes of drama…then I went for bath…after bath I keep looking at my phones…but no sms o cal….haiz….y feel lonely???haha….very funny is no one remember me at all…im starving!!!!no one ask me at all!!!!almost 8pm le…thats y sometimes I wil think that physically ppl wil like pretending good at me in front of others….but inner….haha…its not like wat others think bout it…so friends….don get jealous when u c me got so many ppl around me…its not the real world at all…real world is I wil always be alone here…this is me…n used to it….haha…. :’(
So…the most important ppl around me always are my family…even I have married…but if I have kids….sure kids are the most important…won let them feel alone jus like their mom…who is alone since childhood time…n won let them have a broken family too…

I need the warmth……

10/10/2008 9.39pm
These two days cannot online…so…jus write it first then post immediately…today really unhappy…morning woke up nth to do….sien…so watch drama again…I also dono how many episodes…I know is I watched from 10something til 12..then bath n went for meeting..after meeting went to eat mcd…quite ok de…but back liao nth to do again…watched drama again..til 7something…boring…bath lo…then came here, b11…the place I write todays’s blog….at first ok de…then after one hour of studying, some questions dunno how to do…make me ‘kek liao’…so nvm…but sddly got one malay gal wan me to go the other side to sit…one group came in for meeting…swt!!!no other place meh…stupid…make me really unhappy n no mood liao…SHIT!!!haiz…suan liao…jus let me alone here to feel the feeling of unhappy n moody here….

Pls help me……………

knew it!!!

haiz...knew it!!!! knew it!!!! i knew that i won get any good result this sem...feel very sienz...y always like that...y???easy...cz u din put much effort on it....stupid gal....arghhhhhh.....wat i wan to do now is go to the highest place n shout s loud s i can...can i....no i cant.....thats y stop here to talk it out....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......stil cannot release it out....how......really very sienz leh....y are u like that...angel: when cal u study u din...devil: this is wat u shud get....dai sei....hahahahahaha....angel: nono....u shud gambateh starting from now....don give up....devil: haha...do u think she can....wat a lazy gal...have time jus keep watching drama...assmt also lazy to do...this sem she really can enter my world dy...huahahaha....welcome welcome....angel: no...u shud listen to me...pls don give up...u have your family who really need u...u must gambateh...jus try your best....DON GIVE UP........

class after raya holiday

raya holiday - a week...wat a boring holiday..jus got one day i went out with friends..its quite interesting...the thing which is interesting is stonegrill at tebrau city...first time i went there to have my dinner...i went out with my youngest bro, weichuen n leng chai gor gor..hehe...at first we had a movie - money not enough2..i bought a wallet for someone who i promise to..then dinner...took some pics..the funny thing was the waiter...he saw me taking pic...one by one...then he asked whether wanna help to take pic o not..i said 'yes yes' happily....haha..they laughed at me...what a shame..i wil upload the pics later...in another post...
after one week...
now waiting for SE lecturer...friends also not many...class very few ppl only...wat can do...SE lecturer dunno how to teach...i don know what others are thinking...feel sleepy every time listen to her lecture...haiz...dunno how to score my SE...failed liao lo..not only this subject lo...i think many also..DS la, ISD la, ISLAM la, NETWORK la n lastly is SS...OMG..all subjects....sei liao lo...no need graduate in time...
feel moody...sienz...can i stay at home til final.exam???can i???sob sob... :'(