09/10/2008 07.40pm
For the first time I really feel lonely…after back from rushing the SE proposal, I went back and watch two episodes of drama…then I went for bath…after bath I keep looking at my phones…but no sms o cal….haiz….y feel lonely???haha….very funny is no one remember me at all…im starving!!!!no one ask me at all!!!!almost 8pm le…thats y sometimes I wil think that physically ppl wil like pretending good at me in front of others….but inner….haha…its not like wat others think bout it…so friends….don get jealous when u c me got so many ppl around me…its not the real world at all…real world is I wil always be alone here…this is me…n used to it….haha…. :’(
So…the most important ppl around me always are my family…even I have married…but if I have kids….sure kids are the most important…won let them feel alone jus like their mom…who is alone since childhood time…n won let them have a broken family too…

I need the warmth……

10/10/2008 9.39pm
These two days cannot online…so…jus write it first then post immediately…today really unhappy…morning woke up nth to do….sien…so watch drama again…I also dono how many episodes…I know is I watched from 10something til 12..then bath n went for meeting..after meeting went to eat mcd…quite ok de…but back liao nth to do again…watched drama again..til 7something…boring…bath lo…then came here, b11…the place I write todays’s blog….at first ok de…then after one hour of studying, some questions dunno how to do…make me ‘kek liao’…so nvm…but sddly got one malay gal wan me to go the other side to sit…one group came in for meeting…swt!!!no other place meh…stupid…make me really unhappy n no mood liao…SHIT!!!haiz…suan liao…jus let me alone here to feel the feeling of unhappy n moody here….

Pls help me……………